crankyoldman: "Hermann, you don't have to salute, man." [Pacific Rim] (lee punctuation)
Completely spaced out in the middle of my lab practical and forgot what the little function was to pop up a message box (messagebox.show, apparently) so I've no clue how well I did on that. Also fucked up the file saving part, so we'll see. I did manage to get everything else to work, but validation is hard to see working when there's no messagebox popping up to tell you that you suck. I feel rather like an idiot, because I'm like, freaking intuitive when it comes to programming. I think this means I need to sleep more or eat more or something. Hopefully I can manage an A- by doing well on the final. Hell, a B even would be doable.

I'm just mad at myself, I hate it when I get exam panic. AND FOR A LAB PRACTICAL which I'm usually AWESOME at. Clearly I need to take a break this evening, get out of this environment, have some nicotine, maybe bike ride.

In other news, since I had an hour where my brain could not sit and memorize questions for my pilot exam anymore or it would rebel, I wrote some Before Crisis fic. Because Veld's a form of therapy sometimes, as strange as that may be. Meant to upload an FST last night, ended up passing out (in the sleeping way, not the I'm dying way). Should go do that later.

Alright, I am starving and sick of dining hall food, so I think I'm going to hit up Noodles & Company and get some bubble tea. I am rather indulgent about food when I want to be (not that N&C is particularly expensive, I just keep finding myself not eating the dining hall food and wasting it... and I feel bad, so my palate needs a reset.)

One awesome thing about today is I finally decided to wear my garrison cap, as it fits under my headphones wonderfully, and since I'm a dork I wore it with my pilot training jacket (which I got when I cosplayed Cid way back in the day) because mixing your armed services rocks. History Gast found it amusing (and has basically told me to turn in my paper on Friday, which I will do, since I need to spend tonight studying for the pilot class...). History Gast also has the dorkiest socks I have ever seen and apparently never gives up wearing a button up shirt and a vest (fleece or heavy duty hick fabric) even in 70+ degree weather (he adapts by wearing shorts with his socks pulled up. I am so fond of this man.)

Another awesome thing to balance out the craptacular is the fact that Jersey Highwind was full of quotes today (and random in class discussions) and brought in a large scale RC plane (called "Le Canard" on one side, and "The Duck" on the other, and it was cute and yellow). Gems today were the fact he got super overexcited while showing us Simulink simulations (really, it was just a plane WIGGLING. Dynamics is the Milkshake of Aero Engineering), "You can pull on a cable, but you can't push on it. Like spaghetti.", and "the Wright brothers are proof that when a pilot is sufficiently trained, they can fly an unstable aircraft and not die too much". Justin always manages to miss the fun classes. HEY JUSTIN YOU LOSER YOU MISSED THE COOL CLASS.

God, I hate this week so much. I am actually looking forward to finals, as I will get the chance to SLEEP sometimes.


~Cendri
crankyoldman: "Hermann, you don't have to salute, man." [Pacific Rim] (creativity yay!)
Was seized by the sudden inability to sleep last night, I blame it on nerves and my fucked up eating habits as of late. Note to self: eat better. Will probably pump self up with nicotine and caffeine later. At least waking up (as in, rolling over from the hour of sleep I got) early has lent me another huge section covered and finally mastering aircraft performance charts. All I've left is physiology and then I go over the test questions booklet and see how I do. Emergency and information frequency for ATC is 121.5, weather is 122.0, and the squawk transpoder code is 7700... yes, this is the stuff I've spent the week memorizing on and off and have been hitting really hardkore since yesterday.

Since I couldn't sleep and I needed somewhat dull things to do to hopefully calm my mind (which worked sorta) I have shinies.

- Carbon Made Chapter 6 aka, the last really plotty chapter, because what's left is really more of an epilogue tying up a couple ends. Also proves once again I need to be sleep deprived to finish up stories.
- Music! Even if you don't know what it's for, music is always good.
- Improvements to my site! Well, what I have in lieu of a website. I has pages now, with things! FUN THINGS. Still need to make a page for my other big clump of original fiction, but eh. I did eventually get tired while doing that. XD

I also managed to clean out my computer inbox (yes, I use that as a way to grab incoming crap that I download/assignments/etc, usually I keep up with it pretty well. And I oiled up the gears on my bike, reorganized my drawer, added tags to the relevant sections of my three pilot exam books I am using to study, and sewed up a hole on a pair of pants of mine. Insomnia makes me do straaaange things.

I nearly cracked up in dynamics class today because Jersey Highwind said the clunky old projector sounded like a lion. I don't know why it was so funny, either.

Hopefully I'll be better rested by the evening so I can study more. Can't wait. Sleeping between classes was awesome and helped, yay!

~Cendri

P.S. My layout fucked up and so I decided to use this purple one in the meantime. Not sure if I like it, but it's at least not that crazy crap that it was this morning.

More doom

Mar. 26th, 2008 01:29 pm
crankyoldman: "Hermann, you don't have to salute, man." [Pacific Rim] (femme fatale)
KILLED my lab practical exam today. I came in about ten minutes late and still left before everyone and had no compile errors and it ran perfectly. YES I PWN YOU VISUAL BASIC. God, it's fun being the annoying kid that something comes naturally to. XD

And I've clearly gotta do more collab writing with [personal profile] drakonlily as it's like writing a story that gets done twice as fast. And contains action sequences because I cannot write them for crap. I think we should put "Disclaimer: Cockphobics Wrote This" at the top. I missed AUs. XD For anyone watching, Chapter Four is up

Actually going to try and practice describing movement in Carbon Made as that Dead Fantasy video was ridiculously inspiring.

Also, I was sitting in Dynamics class and remembered how most of Aeronautics sounds like a bunch of dirty jokes if you're half listening. Like Jersey Highwind was on a tirade about rolling balls and weathercocks today. Suffice to say, it was amusing, as I was a little tired and thus more susceptible to things like that. Jersey Highwind never change you're awesome.

Am estactic that my pilot lecture exam got pushed back, as I haven't really studied enough. It's over charts, which are crazy. Anyone who said throttle jockeys are a bunch of dummies (because I've heard that) is an idiot. Makes me wonder why pilot characters in fiction are always assumed to be only common-sense smart. If plane performance charts are common sense, then damns I fail at common sense.

Flux was also good today.

some memage, as I haven't done any in a while )

~Cendri

P.S. So apparently Firefly is just one big rape fantasy with homoerotic undertones. Mind you, this is probably the most BATSHIT thing I've heard in a while.

P.P.S. But what are your thoughts on yaoi? The mind boggles.
crankyoldman: "Hermann, you don't have to salute, man." [Pacific Rim] (delphine suspension)
Alright, so my dynamics class was HILARIOUS this morning. Jersey Highwind didn't particularly feel like getting out of his Spring Break mode (apparently he spent his time blacksmithing, which consists of "making tools or making things... I made more tools than things because things are supposed to be pretty") so he asked us to relay ours. And he poked and prodded until all the people that went to places like Florida and Las Vegas spilled some stories. And then he commented about brain cell loss. Best line was "well, if you've got extra brain cells, alcohol is good to help you get rid of them."

As for my break, I have a new bike, rations, a new haircut (now with more spikiness!), and a book from work. Yes, the people at work bought me a book. It's called Dungeons and Desktops. <3 I'll get on it once I"m done with Blink and other urgent things like, well, my programming lab assignment that I sort of put off all week. >.>

I love my new bike. I was all excited for it to be warm enough to use my old bike, but apparently one of my dad's experiments in architecture did not prove formidable against the wind back home. So it was squished. The amount of "I told you that wouldn't stay up" which my mom was saying was hilarious. My parents are great.

It's apparently a drinking holiday and I have no one to go out with. I'm thinking about buying myself a nice meal instead. Hrm. Debates. Maybe tomorrow, I've got a lot going on today. Dear drinking holidays: stop falling on days I cannot partake!

Oh, and I finally have my steampunk!Edea dress here, so I can work on it whenever I have time. Means I need to buy some better black thread, though, because I want to make sure the repairs look nice.

~Cendri

P.S. This video is both amazing and disturbing. Makes me think of my great grandmother and grandmother, who were both ridiculously bad compulsive hoarders.
crankyoldman: "Hermann, you don't have to salute, man." [Pacific Rim] (rinoa amulet)
So, last night, I totally was like, on something. Since I always let myself sleep in a little on Fridays, I actually went with my natural desire to stay up later and well, wrote. Is it wrong that 'Carbon Made' makes me fucking excited? Seriously, I just, felt so good getting it out. Also, the daddy issues are surfacing and they are awesome.

I clearly have a theme with families and stuff. But I can't help it. I have a good family. Dysfunctional ones are like, something I analyze? I don't know.

I'm probably going to be making a Rinoa FST to go with all this, because I'm seriously starting to like my Rinoa playlist. It's creepy how much music I own that just jives with her. XD Also how appropriate Nick Cave ends up being for most of the things I write. I LOVE YOU NICK CAVE.

Take home exam this weekend. Open to any resources that are not people and I've been keeping up in class. So I think I'll be alright. I hope. No, I will be alright. Considering that the awful canard (if you didn't here me whine about this when I had this homework, a canard is a tail on a plane in the front, it comes from the French word for duck) problem ended up being a 100% (REALLY I WAS SO SHOCKED), I'm totally more prepared than I think I am.

Got my history exam back. Got an A!! Professor History Gast likes to draw things on essays. I kid you not. When he doesn't like something and wishes you would omit it, he draws a mouth with teeth eating it. I've never giggled while reading essay comments before either. Not only that, he said "by cracky" in a comment. Isn't that just precious?

Handed a Red Bull on the way back from class, from a fancy Red Bull car... was a slight bit like crack dealing. Am amused. I guess I just don't say no to drugs. D.A.R.E. will be so disappointed in me. But it was free!

~Cendri
crankyoldman: "Hermann, you don't have to salute, man." [Pacific Rim] (creativity yay!)
God, a lot of my stuff is starting to sound like a manifesto. For some background, keep in mind the context, the whole "inner and outer world" idea is that the mental and abstract processes constitute an inner world, where external influences and objects constitute the outer. Edit: This inner/outer world was provided to us as a concept, hence the linked questions. While this is a little more simplified than I usually like my concepts (and you can tell by how my answers tend to ask questions back), but that's what I had to work with.

Also note I wrote this in a fit of inspiration mere hours from when it was due. Oh, if only I could tame my writing experience to work better on cue.

why don't all my engineering classes get into this kind of thing, well, ever? )

Oh Monday

Feb. 18th, 2008 04:20 pm
crankyoldman: "Hermann, you don't have to salute, man." [Pacific Rim] (vincent mad)
Suffice to say, I really didn't want to wake up this Monday. Just, really did. not. want. It's cold again, and due to the sleeping situation this weekend, I had a real sense of vertigo about where the hell I was. So I missed Dynamics, which made me sad, because apparently there's an essay assigned.

Yes. Essay. Dear Prof Jersey Highwind, you rock.

So some things.

- Hooray I finally upped the Midgar FST. I may be a white girl, but I've got soul, dammit. I have to admit, doing one for a place as opposed to people let me have far too much fun. Part of me wants to do one for Spira now (or god forbid, Balamb).

- Did some major housekeeping for [profile] ff_fanlisting, which meant I totally copied the same comment onto several entries. Not to be annoying, but the better you maintain a standard on a comm like that, the easier it is to find things, which is the aim. Speaking of, I totally know some of you still should make a profile... [profile] tijuana_pirate I still need to make a poll one of these days, because I'm seriously considering mirroring it on insanejournal, because I know there's a section of fandom that hangs out there. And since I have semagic, admin entries can all be made at the same time. Hmm. I'd need a partner over there too, though, is the thing.

- Reading music blogs has been good for me. Also knowing that not all pop music sucks and that if I strategically avoid it, I can keep off the risk of overexposure.

- [profile] first_seventhe you totally owe me like, three Ziggy Stardust tracks by now. XD I didn't write any today, though.

- Dexter is pretty awesome. Then again, I like anything that involves disciplined crazy, which is a great deal of that show. Plus, there are adorable brother-sister moments that make me smile, and I'm fond of his girlfriend. I also like that most of his social interaction is very obviously faked, if you know how to look for it, which considering my dating history the kinds of things I find interesting in people says something. I need to read the books, dammit.

- Finally finished my book on psychological Flow, and I really want to dig up his one on creativity. As my paper really seems to be leaning in "how to cultivate creativity in adults" and how that relates to inventors, engineers, some scientists, etc. History exam on Friday is going to set me back a little on that, but I've still got time. Need to pester Prof JH about some specifics on the module he asked me to design.

- I really need to finish this damned lab. How did I totally forget to finish it for several days? At least it's not due until 10 pm.

- I don't want to go outside again, but Justin has my notes for class. Dammit. I'll just have to suck it up.

~Cendri
crankyoldman: "Hermann, you don't have to salute, man." [Pacific Rim] (creativity yay!)
OMFG. ALRIGHT. I TOTALLY NEED TO BABBLE AT MORE PROFESSORS MORE OFTEN.

So.

Since I went and visited Professor Jersey Highwind in his office, because apparently he has office hours anytime he's in there (which meant I simply went up to him at the end of class and said, "HEY WHEN ARE YOU IN YOUR OFFICE" which resulted in some giggles form the prof coming into the class, who is now Professor Boyscout, as he comes up again later in this story). So I showed up, told him about my history project and what I spent last semester doing and that I am basically the Engineer Who Sucks At Math Like Whoa, which resulted in some fabulous discussion and postulation.

Of course, on my way to his office AFTER WRITING HIS OFFICE NUMBER DOWN, I had a dyslexic moment and mixed them up. So, I got lost. In my own damn engineering building. I found an office open with a dude that didn't appear to be doing much (Professor Boyscout, who is apparently one of he department heads?! WAY TO PICK THEM) and he helped me figure it out, and was a little lost himself. He said "ah, good, I got my boyscout deed of the day out of the way before lunch" and also remembered me from class as "being the one who asked Prof Jersey Highwind when he's in his office in such a blunt tone."

ANYWAY.

As a result of fabulous discussion and postulation and then good old JH asking why I suck at class sometimes, he said:

"Hey, since you kind of work in this field, if you have time, why don't you try designing a module for this class?"

My immediate thought was "DO I GET EXTRA CREDIT?" but this is college, and they don't offer that stuff in my classes. However, should I ever be on the borderline between two grades, this helps. After leaving the office, I realized just what I'd been asked.

WHICH FUCKING ROCKS.

Naturally, I decided to talk to Professor History Gast after his class about this development. And like a good hippie with a technical bent, he was naturally excited. And offered to let me use the module as a chunk of my project.

WIN.

I guess the real dilemma is... how do you teach airplane dynamics concepts in an interesting non-book and lecture way? How do you turn the book into a RESOURCE and not a BIBLE? What can I use from work to translate to much more complicated and not entirely grokked problems on my part?

And how can I involve crayons in this??? Come on, like you wouldn't want to play with crayons in class.

Suffice to say, this will be eating my brain for a while.

tl;dr version:

- profs are people too
- if you suck at something, fix it
- i want to play with crayons
crankyoldman: "Hermann, you don't have to salute, man." [Pacific Rim] (creativity yay!)
That's it, I GET IT UNIVERSE. I HAVE UNOFFICIALLY DECIDED TO MAKE ONE OF MY GRAD SCHOOL STUDIES BE EDUCATION. UNOFFICIALLY ONLY BECAUSE I NEED TO FINISH THE UNDERGRAD WITHOUT DYING. BUT I AM NOT BECOMING A STUFFY PROFESSOR, OH NO, I AM GOING TO DEVOTE MY LIFE TO CREATIVITY.

Reasons?

- History Professors That Keep Pointing Me In That Direction With That Knowing Sort of Prodding
- My Job Of Awesome Which I Miss Like Fyre
- My Inability to Learn Anything Without BABBLING About It
- My New Favorite Aero Professor

More on that professor. So today, we get to class and he's setting up the computer projector for something. I'm thinking "oh neat, he's going to tangent on some Skunkworks stuff and basically make my life" because really? Tangents aren't just so that shit doesn't end up on the test. Tangents are where I actually learn as opposed to endless notes on the board ([profile] first_seventhe totally knows what I'm talking about).

So what he put up was this AMAZING video where an old dude was talking to a bunch of educators and basically said everything that I'd suspected since entering college and nearly losing my soul and getting it back. Basically, this guy said, "the older you get, the less creative you are encouraged to be".

!!

and more on that, because I'm apt to ramble )

tl;dr version for those watching at home:

Yay creativity!
Boo soul-sucking equations!
OMGWTF can I has graduation now?

~Cendri

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