Permit me a moment to complain
Mar. 25th, 2008 02:09 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
crankyoldmanAlright. So apparently the way housing works around here sucks. I basically would have had to claim my room a week after I got here. I was still moving in and trying not to freak out over insurance crap then!
It's not that I'm a difficult person or anything, but I've found that sharing a room with a person (not an apartment, just a ROOM) hasn't really worked for me. I stay up at weird hours, I am generally a weird, oh and let's not forget that I have a girlfriend. The chances of finding a roommate that shares a room with me and is cool with ALL of that is slim to none. Maybe I'm being a little pessimistic, but I had a control freak and a militant narcissist as roommates. My first roommate actually wasn't so bad, but I was an idiot and switched rooms to be with a friend (who turned out being PSYCHO).
I'm hesitant to get an apartment because of food. I'm not a particularly good cook, and on top of that, I have a tendency of forgetting to eat. Which is bad. Then again, depending on when Justin graduates, this might be cool. Even for a semester, considering my luck getting into a single room on an odd semester like I did.
Hrm.
I like the secretary in our dorm, she's at least realistic and recognizes the fact I'm kind of odd. She's kind of like a kindly older aunt type. The resident life manager (I kid you not, that is her title) is all, "blah blah blah join the facebook group and come to mixers and find a roommate that way!"
NEWFLASH LADY. DO NOT GET HIGH AND MIGHTY SIMPLY BECAUSE I AVOID FORCED SOCIALIZATION. BECAUSE FORCE SOCIALIZATION BY IT'S NATURE IS AWKWARD AND I HAVE MORE IMPORTANT THINGS TO DO.
That's really always annoyed me. I make friends how I make them. The people I generally get along with are the types that know to just leave me alone sometimes. I'm fine with being introverted, it means I suck less at school and the relationships I DO cultivate are that much better. I don't ignore people because I hate them, I just don't always have the energy. It's taken a long fucking time to build myself up after nearly losing my mind, I do not need random catty girly shit to deal with.
Seriously took ALL my self control just to not start yelling at this woman. I just about lost my temper, like, my ears felt hot. I haven't gotten that pissed off in a while. I mean, she had the gall to just be like, "you've got a bad attitude."
Being defensive and trying to keep the drama in my life down is not bad it's experience. I get along with girls (if my f-list is any indication) but I can live with very few. Emily's probably one of the few girls I've been able to live with, and I felt bad whenever I managed to piss her off (which happened, I was even more introverted back then). Because she's so nice and had pressures that I couldn't even imagine. But I think the fact we got along had to do with the fact she had gone through a lot and while I was still getting through the "learning from shit" stage, there was at least a basic understanding.
Unless you thought I was terrible, Emily, and sorry if I was. >.>
I mean, I used to think I was an extrovert, but then I had to actually have people around ALL THE TIME and I didn't do so well. I need some quiet time to myself once in a while or else I get too stressed out and can't sleep and start getting panicky and stop eating... it's not pretty. One of the things that drove me mad during being married is that my ex-husband never left me alone, except at night when he went to work. So I stopped sleeping at night and got online because that was the only time I could get my sanity back. Sure, that may sound social, but it's different. It's a... proximity thing.
God, maybe I need to see a shrink again.
*breathes* Alright, I'm starting to think rationally again, though I am still just... Sandy (the secretary lady) got what I was asking. I told her plainly I liked the dorms because it meant food, she suggested checking out the graduate dorm (which I'm old enough for, you have to be 21, for some reason) and see if any singles are left and possibly going and checking out roommates there. Reasonable suggestions in a nice tone. The RLM just... god, I do not like it when people talk to me like I am stupid or a freak. It makes me lose the tact I've worked HARD to get, and gah. I'm cool with the facts. That's all I asked for. I did not ask for a diatribe on my "bad attitude" and how I should make my facebook profile public (dude, I use it to keep up with my sister and maybe a couple friends I am not comfortable with my real name on the internets!) and crap.
Does anyone else get bothered by stuff like that too, or am I really just completely odd?
At the very least, if the dorms don't have what I want/hope for then I've got plenty of time to look for an apartment. Or see how long Justin's around and say the heck with this crap. Just need to call my dad. I wish it were later tonight, he usually helps me think rationally. Gah. Thank god my test tomorrow is a lab practical (I ROCK THOSE HARDKORE).
It's not that I'm a difficult person or anything, but I've found that sharing a room with a person (not an apartment, just a ROOM) hasn't really worked for me. I stay up at weird hours, I am generally a weird, oh and let's not forget that I have a girlfriend. The chances of finding a roommate that shares a room with me and is cool with ALL of that is slim to none. Maybe I'm being a little pessimistic, but I had a control freak and a militant narcissist as roommates. My first roommate actually wasn't so bad, but I was an idiot and switched rooms to be with a friend (who turned out being PSYCHO).
I'm hesitant to get an apartment because of food. I'm not a particularly good cook, and on top of that, I have a tendency of forgetting to eat. Which is bad. Then again, depending on when Justin graduates, this might be cool. Even for a semester, considering my luck getting into a single room on an odd semester like I did.
Hrm.
I like the secretary in our dorm, she's at least realistic and recognizes the fact I'm kind of odd. She's kind of like a kindly older aunt type. The resident life manager (I kid you not, that is her title) is all, "blah blah blah join the facebook group and come to mixers and find a roommate that way!"
NEWFLASH LADY. DO NOT GET HIGH AND MIGHTY SIMPLY BECAUSE I AVOID FORCED SOCIALIZATION. BECAUSE FORCE SOCIALIZATION BY IT'S NATURE IS AWKWARD AND I HAVE MORE IMPORTANT THINGS TO DO.
That's really always annoyed me. I make friends how I make them. The people I generally get along with are the types that know to just leave me alone sometimes. I'm fine with being introverted, it means I suck less at school and the relationships I DO cultivate are that much better. I don't ignore people because I hate them, I just don't always have the energy. It's taken a long fucking time to build myself up after nearly losing my mind, I do not need random catty girly shit to deal with.
Seriously took ALL my self control just to not start yelling at this woman. I just about lost my temper, like, my ears felt hot. I haven't gotten that pissed off in a while. I mean, she had the gall to just be like, "you've got a bad attitude."
Being defensive and trying to keep the drama in my life down is not bad it's experience. I get along with girls (if my f-list is any indication) but I can live with very few. Emily's probably one of the few girls I've been able to live with, and I felt bad whenever I managed to piss her off (which happened, I was even more introverted back then). Because she's so nice and had pressures that I couldn't even imagine. But I think the fact we got along had to do with the fact she had gone through a lot and while I was still getting through the "learning from shit" stage, there was at least a basic understanding.
Unless you thought I was terrible, Emily, and sorry if I was. >.>
I mean, I used to think I was an extrovert, but then I had to actually have people around ALL THE TIME and I didn't do so well. I need some quiet time to myself once in a while or else I get too stressed out and can't sleep and start getting panicky and stop eating... it's not pretty. One of the things that drove me mad during being married is that my ex-husband never left me alone, except at night when he went to work. So I stopped sleeping at night and got online because that was the only time I could get my sanity back. Sure, that may sound social, but it's different. It's a... proximity thing.
God, maybe I need to see a shrink again.
*breathes* Alright, I'm starting to think rationally again, though I am still just... Sandy (the secretary lady) got what I was asking. I told her plainly I liked the dorms because it meant food, she suggested checking out the graduate dorm (which I'm old enough for, you have to be 21, for some reason) and see if any singles are left and possibly going and checking out roommates there. Reasonable suggestions in a nice tone. The RLM just... god, I do not like it when people talk to me like I am stupid or a freak. It makes me lose the tact I've worked HARD to get, and gah. I'm cool with the facts. That's all I asked for. I did not ask for a diatribe on my "bad attitude" and how I should make my facebook profile public (dude, I use it to keep up with my sister and maybe a couple friends I am not comfortable with my real name on the internets!) and crap.
Does anyone else get bothered by stuff like that too, or am I really just completely odd?
At the very least, if the dorms don't have what I want/hope for then I've got plenty of time to look for an apartment. Or see how long Justin's around and say the heck with this crap. Just need to call my dad. I wish it were later tonight, he usually helps me think rationally. Gah. Thank god my test tomorrow is a lab practical (I ROCK THOSE HARDKORE).