Cranky. Old. Man?

Completely spaced out in the middle of my lab practical and forgot what the little function was to pop up a message box (messagebox.show, apparently) so I've no clue how well I did on that. Also fucked up the file saving part, so we'll see. I did manage to get everything else to work, but validation is hard to see working when there's no messagebox popping up to tell you that you suck. I feel rather like an idiot, because I'm like, freaking intuitive when it comes to programming. I think this means I need to sleep more or eat more or something. Hopefully I can manage an A- by doing well on the final. Hell, a B even would be doable.

I'm just mad at myself, I hate it when I get exam panic. AND FOR A LAB PRACTICAL which I'm usually AWESOME at. Clearly I need to take a break this evening, get out of this environment, have some nicotine, maybe bike ride.

In other news, since I had an hour where my brain could not sit and memorize questions for my pilot exam anymore or it would rebel, I wrote some Before Crisis fic. Because Veld's a form of therapy sometimes, as strange as that may be. Meant to upload an FST last night, ended up passing out (in the sleeping way, not the I'm dying way). Should go do that later.

Alright, I am starving and sick of dining hall food, so I think I'm going to hit up Noodles & Company and get some bubble tea. I am rather indulgent about food when I want to be (not that N&C is particularly expensive, I just keep finding myself not eating the dining hall food and wasting it... and I feel bad, so my palate needs a reset.)

One awesome thing about today is I finally decided to wear my garrison cap, as it fits under my headphones wonderfully, and since I'm a dork I wore it with my pilot training jacket (which I got when I cosplayed Cid way back in the day) because mixing your armed services rocks. History Gast found it amusing (and has basically told me to turn in my paper on Friday, which I will do, since I need to spend tonight studying for the pilot class...). History Gast also has the dorkiest socks I have ever seen and apparently never gives up wearing a button up shirt and a vest (fleece or heavy duty hick fabric) even in 70+ degree weather (he adapts by wearing shorts with his socks pulled up. I am so fond of this man.)

Another awesome thing to balance out the craptacular is the fact that Jersey Highwind was full of quotes today (and random in class discussions) and brought in a large scale RC plane (called "Le Canard" on one side, and "The Duck" on the other, and it was cute and yellow). Gems today were the fact he got super overexcited while showing us Simulink simulations (really, it was just a plane WIGGLING. Dynamics is the Milkshake of Aero Engineering), "You can pull on a cable, but you can't push on it. Like spaghetti.", and "the Wright brothers are proof that when a pilot is sufficiently trained, they can fly an unstable aircraft and not die too much". Justin always manages to miss the fun classes. HEY JUSTIN YOU LOSER YOU MISSED THE COOL CLASS.

God, I hate this week so much. I am actually looking forward to finals, as I will get the chance to SLEEP sometimes.


~Cendri

KILLED my lab practical exam today. I came in about ten minutes late and still left before everyone and had no compile errors and it ran perfectly. YES I PWN YOU VISUAL BASIC. God, it's fun being the annoying kid that something comes naturally to. XD

And I've clearly gotta do more collab writing with drakonlily as it's like writing a story that gets done twice as fast. And contains action sequences because I cannot write them for crap. I think we should put "Disclaimer: Cockphobics Wrote This" at the top. I missed AUs. XD For anyone watching, Chapter Four is up

Actually going to try and practice describing movement in Carbon Made as that Dead Fantasy video was ridiculously inspiring.

Also, I was sitting in Dynamics class and remembered how most of Aeronautics sounds like a bunch of dirty jokes if you're half listening. Like Jersey Highwind was on a tirade about rolling balls and weathercocks today. Suffice to say, it was amusing, as I was a little tired and thus more susceptible to things like that. Jersey Highwind never change you're awesome.

Am estactic that my pilot lecture exam got pushed back, as I haven't really studied enough. It's over charts, which are crazy. Anyone who said throttle jockeys are a bunch of dummies (because I've heard that) is an idiot. Makes me wonder why pilot characters in fiction are always assumed to be only common-sense smart. If plane performance charts are common sense, then damns I fail at common sense.

Flux was also good today.

( some memage, as I haven't done any in a while )

~Cendri

P.S. So apparently Firefly is just one big rape fantasy with homoerotic undertones. Mind you, this is probably the most BATSHIT thing I've heard in a while.

P.P.S. But what are your thoughts on yaoi? The mind boggles.

So, last night, I totally was like, on something. Since I always let myself sleep in a little on Fridays, I actually went with my natural desire to stay up later and well, wrote. Is it wrong that 'Carbon Made' makes me fucking excited? Seriously, I just, felt so good getting it out. Also, the daddy issues are surfacing and they are awesome.

I clearly have a theme with families and stuff. But I can't help it. I have a good family. Dysfunctional ones are like, something I analyze? I don't know.

I'm probably going to be making a Rinoa FST to go with all this, because I'm seriously starting to like my Rinoa playlist. It's creepy how much music I own that just jives with her. XD Also how appropriate Nick Cave ends up being for most of the things I write. I LOVE YOU NICK CAVE.

Take home exam this weekend. Open to any resources that are not people and I've been keeping up in class. So I think I'll be alright. I hope. No, I will be alright. Considering that the awful canard (if you didn't here me whine about this when I had this homework, a canard is a tail on a plane in the front, it comes from the French word for duck) problem ended up being a 100% (REALLY I WAS SO SHOCKED), I'm totally more prepared than I think I am.

Got my history exam back. Got an A!! Professor History Gast likes to draw things on essays. I kid you not. When he doesn't like something and wishes you would omit it, he draws a mouth with teeth eating it. I've never giggled while reading essay comments before either. Not only that, he said "by cracky" in a comment. Isn't that just precious?

Handed a Red Bull on the way back from class, from a fancy Red Bull car... was a slight bit like crack dealing. Am amused. I guess I just don't say no to drugs. D.A.R.E. will be so disappointed in me. But it was free!

~Cendri

Suffice to say, I really didn't want to wake up this Monday. Just, really did. not. want. It's cold again, and due to the sleeping situation this weekend, I had a real sense of vertigo about where the hell I was. So I missed Dynamics, which made me sad, because apparently there's an essay assigned.

Yes. Essay. Dear Prof Jersey Highwind, you rock.

So some things.

- Hooray I finally upped the Midgar FST. I may be a white girl, but I've got soul, dammit. I have to admit, doing one for a place as opposed to people let me have far too much fun. Part of me wants to do one for Spira now (or god forbid, Balamb).

- Did some major housekeeping for ff_fanlisting, which meant I totally copied the same comment onto several entries. Not to be annoying, but the better you maintain a standard on a comm like that, the easier it is to find things, which is the aim. Speaking of, I totally know some of you still should make a profile... tijuana_pirate I still need to make a poll one of these days, because I'm seriously considering mirroring it on insanejournal, because I know there's a section of fandom that hangs out there. And since I have semagic, admin entries can all be made at the same time. Hmm. I'd need a partner over there too, though, is the thing.

- Reading music blogs has been good for me. Also knowing that not all pop music sucks and that if I strategically avoid it, I can keep off the risk of overexposure.

- first_seventhe you totally owe me like, three Ziggy Stardust tracks by now. XD I didn't write any today, though.

- Dexter is pretty awesome. Then again, I like anything that involves disciplined crazy, which is a great deal of that show. Plus, there are adorable brother-sister moments that make me smile, and I'm fond of his girlfriend. I also like that most of his social interaction is very obviously faked, if you know how to look for it, which considering my dating history the kinds of things I find interesting in people says something. I need to read the books, dammit.

- Finally finished my book on psychological Flow, and I really want to dig up his one on creativity. As my paper really seems to be leaning in "how to cultivate creativity in adults" and how that relates to inventors, engineers, some scientists, etc. History exam on Friday is going to set me back a little on that, but I've still got time. Need to pester Prof JH about some specifics on the module he asked me to design.

- I really need to finish this damned lab. How did I totally forget to finish it for several days? At least it's not due until 10 pm.

- I don't want to go outside again, but Justin has my notes for class. Dammit. I'll just have to suck it up.

~Cendri

That's it, I GET IT UNIVERSE. I HAVE UNOFFICIALLY DECIDED TO MAKE ONE OF MY GRAD SCHOOL STUDIES BE EDUCATION. UNOFFICIALLY ONLY BECAUSE I NEED TO FINISH THE UNDERGRAD WITHOUT DYING. BUT I AM NOT BECOMING A STUFFY PROFESSOR, OH NO, I AM GOING TO DEVOTE MY LIFE TO CREATIVITY.

Reasons?

- History Professors That Keep Pointing Me In That Direction With That Knowing Sort of Prodding
- My Job Of Awesome Which I Miss Like Fyre
- My Inability to Learn Anything Without BABBLING About It
- My New Favorite Aero Professor

More on that professor. So today, we get to class and he's setting up the computer projector for something. I'm thinking "oh neat, he's going to tangent on some Skunkworks stuff and basically make my life" because really? Tangents aren't just so that shit doesn't end up on the test. Tangents are where I actually learn as opposed to endless notes on the board (first_seventhe totally knows what I'm talking about).

So what he put up was this AMAZING video where an old dude was talking to a bunch of educators and basically said everything that I'd suspected since entering college and nearly losing my soul and getting it back. Basically, this guy said, "the older you get, the less creative you are encouraged to be".

!!

( and more on that, because I'm apt to ramble )

tl;dr version for those watching at home:

Yay creativity!
Boo soul-sucking equations!
OMGWTF can I has graduation now?

~Cendri