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Ha, alright, so my dynamics prof REALLY remembers me. By luck of the scheduling, I managed to have two classes in the same room--one after the other. At the end of the day, when I'm most tired. This is good, actually. Anyway, so I'm sitting waiting for the next class and my prof starts up a conversation with me. It was nice. I like his dorky California-ness and dorky laught responses to my frank way of answering questions. He also seemed pleased I got a job. It's weird, it's not so much an ego boost (I passed his class with a C, a very hard-earned and almost B type of C, but a C) as much feeling like I'm still sort of in the engineering family. You know, not the favorite child, but the kooky cousin that is from out of town that stayed too long because she sold her car to buy donuts. Something like that. A walking talking What Not to Wear: Engineering Edition or something.
But getting people to snicker and laught dorkily (several of which I don't know, or can hear me, because my voice somewhat projects) is a good sign to me. I think I've gotten back to being myself, entirely. And by being "myself" I don't mean taken steps back on the maturity chain, but like, there are certain core things to a personality. Mine just happens to be frankness and no embarrassment when it comes to my appearance. I suppose that's directly related to confidence, and I think I've got a lot of it back now. Despite things being hard and it taking me a little longer to figure out some things, I really feel like I deserve to be in this program. Maybe not because I'm a supergenius (god lord, I don't even think I'm THAT intelligent, let alone genius) but because of grit. Or something.
Makes me kind of wonder what things some of ya'll have held onto in your personality and stuff. Or are all of you in transitional phases? Considering the wide variety of ages on my f-list, I'm curious. You don't have to answer, though. It'd just be nice.
~Cendri
P.S. Cosplay Wednesday worked, though due to the temperature (that being HOT) I changed my outfit a little after that class. What I got after that was kind of stylish and I'm trying to figure out the camera I checked out so that I can take a picture. We'll see how that goes. It's a pretty camera, though.
P.P.S. This comic is pretty close to my thoughts on the matter. <3
But getting people to snicker and laught dorkily (several of which I don't know, or can hear me, because my voice somewhat projects) is a good sign to me. I think I've gotten back to being myself, entirely. And by being "myself" I don't mean taken steps back on the maturity chain, but like, there are certain core things to a personality. Mine just happens to be frankness and no embarrassment when it comes to my appearance. I suppose that's directly related to confidence, and I think I've got a lot of it back now. Despite things being hard and it taking me a little longer to figure out some things, I really feel like I deserve to be in this program. Maybe not because I'm a supergenius (god lord, I don't even think I'm THAT intelligent, let alone genius) but because of grit. Or something.
Makes me kind of wonder what things some of ya'll have held onto in your personality and stuff. Or are all of you in transitional phases? Considering the wide variety of ages on my f-list, I'm curious. You don't have to answer, though. It'd just be nice.
~Cendri
P.S. Cosplay Wednesday worked, though due to the temperature (that being HOT) I changed my outfit a little after that class. What I got after that was kind of stylish and I'm trying to figure out the camera I checked out so that I can take a picture. We'll see how that goes. It's a pretty camera, though.
P.P.S. This comic is pretty close to my thoughts on the matter. <3
