Stress turns me into Cid Highwind

[crankyoldman]

Well, the smoking (not too much, I am not suicidal) and the ridiculous amount of tea drinking is very Highwind. The insomnia is just headcanon. XD

Two exams, just a little nervous about them because this is the thermo territory I suck at and the other one I haven't had as much time to study for. But I know in order to keep sane, study breaks are needed. So over the course of my (rather long, I was up early) day of some class and studying I watched a couple documentaries.

Note: watching Grey Gardens and Confessions of a Superhero in the same day is not a good idea. Well, if you're really a softie deep down like I am. That was a little emotional. XD I really feel for real life eccentrics, and I think in both cases the aim of the filmmakers was not to make fun of the people they were portraying because they were somewhat enchanted by them. And judging by some of the commentary (I need to learn to stop reading comments on videos, they always make me want to stab people) not everyone is so taken with weirdos as I am.

Then again, in a lot of ways I'm kind of an eccentric in training. Because in my opinion you have to be at least over 30 to be labeled eccentric.

Also, the whole me being unapproachable thing has gotten ridiculous. I talked with several people in the lab when I was working on my project (and one guy in particular that helped brush me back up on calculus, even if he had a slight attitude, but I'm used to that, this is engineering, not fluffy gold star land) who then proceeded to list off how many classes they'd been in with me and how they'd wanted to say hi. People don't talk to each other these days. But it really says something when the introvert has to be the one to strike up a conversation. I do realize I'm an outlier (math term, and something one of the kids called me that I kind of like, because "individual" suggests a special snowflakeness that I do not adhere to) and kind of am, well, visible, but the faces in the crowd eventually become faces you know. So. I guess my point is, I am not a celebrity, ax murderer, or cupcake. Strange and amazing things will likely not happen if you say hi to me.

Do me a favor. Say hello to a stranger tomorrow. I'm not saying walk up to just anyone, but I know we all (at least we all being the non-shut ins, and in your case I suggest going for a walk) have people we see around and get curious about. Say good day. Anything. Just do it. The increased apathy and distance of humanity is driving me nuts. We're better than that.

Now I'm going to have some goddamn (decaffeinated sleepytime) tea and go to bed.

Comments

[churched.livejournal.com]

So, if I were to say hi to a cupcake, strange and amazing things would happen?

...I must test this.

[darcenciel.livejournal.com]

TEA

[safety-caesars.livejournal.com]

I fall victim to the afraid-to-say-hi syndrome! It's not that I don't want to talk to people; I just am shy/awkward around people I don't already know. Catch 22 FTL!

[taekwonangel.livejournal.com]

Massive "WORD" to the increased distancing of humanity - I've had friends tell me - friends! - that they prefer to text message me because they feel awkward on the phone. And these are smart, interesting, eloquent (well, most of the time...) people. I miss Japan in that respect, where people nodded and bowed almost as a rule, even in Tokyo, where there was hardly space for such gestures! Maybe the train culture binds them closer - no space TO be distant, so they learn to live side-by-side? Hrm.

In any case, I hope you enjoyed your tea, slept well, and am inspired by the fact you've inspired others to go out there and break into others' bubbles. (Kinda. ^_~)

[drakonlily.livejournal.com]

I'm going to watch Confessions of a Superhero this weekend. :) I hope you get lots of rest and the tests go well!! <3

[iskodayinikwe.livejournal.com]

I am ALWAYS guilty of the not saying hi thing. I do smile and try to look generally friendly, but I'm afraid when I open my mouth, flames will come out and consume the other person. 0.o Kidding. Just terribly shy in "real life." However, I do have a LOT of random people come up and say hi to me...an more, much more....like life stories more. LOL.

And, on a side note, I want to go to fluffy gold star land. Can I? Please?????